I've recently just enrolled Javier into Kinderland Childcare Centre...
He will start schooling on 4th Jan 2010... Though it is quite costly and somehow inconvenient where I need to travel extra mile, I think it is worthwhile...
I'm still thinking how to balance with work... Quite nervous 1...

Hopefully, I'll get a job that I like on Jan next yr.. Many others childcare are either full or not up my standard...

Hence, I'm giving the best for him...

Last weekend, we manage to get some fresh air while Dylan was still having his afternoon nap.
Hubby gotten me W995, but now he is demanding back this phone, because it is new, and I'm always giving in! I really don't like it lor... Everytime, I must use old phone... ^%&^$@##&%^*&

Yesterday, we went swimming..
The moment we step into the swimming complex, I can sense that Javier was so excited.
Ever since the Ghost festival started, we banned swimming activities..
Javier made gret progress in swimming.
He can actually go swimming himself and diving...
When we helped him up, he was actually laughing.
So much fun he had..

My ears are so pain... Listening to his nonsense... I really want to have some peace, I like to be alone at home, especially when he is at work... Nobody will nag nag nag...

Javier is in love with Elmo... He knows that Elmo loves him, so he is always willing to wear the clothes that have Elmo printing on it...

Everyday, he will bring me his Lego Bag, and ask me to Open (penn -> this is how he prononce...) So amazed by his moves...

I'm so happy to see him grow up everyday... He brighten up my boring life...

Say no more... Shall update some photo soon...

Life is short... Do whatever that is right whenever you felt like doing it...
Don't hesitate...

I guess until now then i realised that I shouldn't take things for granted...

Finally feel like blogging, I know my blog had been rotting for damn long time...

Past few months, I had been going to work when Nicholas is off.. Therefore, my life became a routine...
Work -> Home -> Take Care Javier -> Play with me ( This makes me felt like I've neglected him a lot)
Hence, when I'm not working, I'll spend quality time with him...

This month, my sis is starting to work for the mooncake production in the weekend and I'll be baby sitting Dylan, the tyrant... =/

Now I'm freaking pissed off, somebody at home(you know who you are), used my computer and got virus... My computer is hanged whenever I switch on.

So right now, that somebody is not happy with me using his laptop...

I'm need a PC badly and you are freaking broke to provide me one! So stop your nonsense!

I am in a very bad mood today. So do not provoke me further!!! (Understand, unless you don't know English!)

Eventful Moments to Be Shared...

It has been 2 months since I last blog...
The little rascal have started to walk on this own lately... Been very busy playing with him most of the time... We had also brought Javier for his first swim, and He had turn 1 this 3rd June... As for me and Nic, both of us celebrated our first Mothers' and Fathers' day... Though we didn't celebrate but we are both happy!


Excited to have such a big bathtub to play in...

Happy happy two little boys...

Suck suck fingers testing how to water taste like...

So much fun... Look how cheeky both of them...

Enjoying the moment...

Next will be Javier's Birthday Party held at Bukit Batok Civil Servant Club...

His cake...

Afternoon nap...


Javier's sis... Cousin lar...

Javier's Grandparents... My Parents...

The Families...

The Happy Three Family...

With his favourite grandfather, but Javier is so grumpy due to the humid weather...

Say cheese...

Sis with dylan... He is also not feeling good because of the humid weather...

Imagine if I have 3 kids to handle... It will be like this...

Look at the 2nd photo, Javier is trying to step the cake...


With the aunties and grandaunties...

The In-laws...

With my close friends...

From left, Daniel/Dylan/Celestine/Javier/Me/Nic & Derrick

Time to eat cake...


Yummy yummy!

Look what has he done... I find it cute though...

For Javier birthday, the credits goes to Jason...

Because he set up the balloons for Javier FOC and he came earlier to help Nic too!
And 1 more credit for Shi Min...

Gtg, will update on more things asap...

Javier is Botak liao...

It is the Qing Ming Festival again...
Mummy decide to give Javier a botak head...
So that he can take photo with the little buddha at Brighthill Temple..

Before and After

At the temple...


The one real life little buddha and the statue little buddha

Why is the floor green...

It looks scary... Mamamama.........................

It is pricking me... I don't like it...

Reciting sutra...

Thats better, I felt so much safer...

Scare scare.. Got monster at the grass or not...

I want to leave here ASAP...

With my beloved grandpa....

More to come soon... Please stay tune...

Life has been playing with me since February.

It started on 15th, the day I thought it was just a stomach upset.
I suspected to be an appendicitis.
Hence, after seeing the GP, I was referred to A&E.
When I was in the department, awaiting to be examined,
A sudden gush of blood flowing down from below, initially I thought it was caused by the irregular menses.
Pregnancy test done, 2 doctors were looking suspiciously at the kit to double confirm.
From that moment, I felt something amissed, and 2 minutes later, I was told that I am pregnant.
Shocked for my life.

Totally speechless, as I was having menses on the 5th which was 2 days after I seen my Gynae doctor, given medication for my period to come as it was already late for 2 mths.

Told that the pregnancy is very early, may be for about 2 weeks gestation. No heartbeat yet..

The doctor even ask me, if I am able to keep it, will I keep? I said yes.
They did the scan but it wasn't clear enough to see the foetus, hence they wants to transfer me to KKH for more detailed scanning, and gave me some diagnosis that I was likely to have a miscarriage or ectopic pregnancy. Either I will be admit to TTSH or KKH for observation.

I was ferried to KKH by ambulance. The pain is back before I was sent to KKH.
The pain also occurred at my back which I did not notice.

At KKH, I was done with the scanning, they said it is too early to see what is it.
Hence I was admitted to KKH. No medication was given to prevent the early abortion. Only painkiller were given.

Though in the front of everyone I said I wasn't sad about it, but deep inside I actually blame myself.

Why see my gynae for the late period?
If I didn't see her, may be all this wouldn't have happened at all.

I keep on questioning myself, why is god playing with me?

People by my side keep on telling me I still have Javier... When my period was late and the pregnancy test I did was negative, I thought pregnancy won't happened.

I felt very emotional after the entire thing.
Why was I the only one to be blamed on???
I do not know how to speak out... The entire pregnancy doesn't caused by me entirely!!!
It is the both parties... Why do I have to be blamed??
I have already gone through the pain of losing one, why can't I have a peace of mind and let me forget about the trauma? Or even stop telling me how can I handle 2 when 1 of them is sicked???

Physically and mentally I had enough... I can't take this anymore.
Please stop saying things that reminds me of it.

I might sound too rude or offend anybody, but please, I just want to forget...
From now on, please don't remind me by saying, I will not have 2nd child or how are you able to provide 2 children with 1 adult working...

Sleeping Pattern Part 3

Look carefully what is he holding in his hand...

Needs some support of his head...